Brave Jade is christened with her boys but she still hasn't told them she's dying

DYING Jade Goody and her two beloved boys were christened together yesterday, with their mother telling them: "Through Jesus, we can stay together." 

 

A small group of close family and friends sobbed at the emotional service, cut down to just 20 minutes in light of Jade's rapidly deteriorating health.
But the plucky Big Brother star defied exhaustion to complete the christening-her final wish.
The touching ceremony was attended by new husband Jack Tweed, TV presenter Jeff Brazier-the father of her sons Bobby, five, and Freddie, four-and her mother Jackiey Budden.
After the service in the chapel at London's Royal Marsden Hospital it emerged that, with her now just days rather than weeks to live, Jade has still not told her children she is going to die.
She and Jack, 21, have been discussing with grief counsellors how to deliver the news to the boys.

Gown

Jade's spokesman Max Clifford said: "They do not know how bad their mum is.
"They know she is very ill but that is something that has to be handled very delicately."
  Talking about Jade's reference to Jesus, he said: "She told me, 'I want the boys to be christened. Hopefully they will get to know Jesus and we can keep in touch when I'm gone somewhere else.' "
We can also reveal that 27-year-old Jade has asked to be allowed to die at her home in Buckhurst Hill, Essex.
An insider said she told relatives: "I want to die at home. Please let me go home."
Jade was taken to the chapel for the service in a wheelchair, still wearing her hospital gown but without the make-up she had applied for her wedding just two weeks earlier.
Her spokesman confirmed she is a pale shadow of the woman who defied the odds to walk down the aisle.
He explained: "She is noticeably physically different. At the wedding she had makeup. She didn't have makeup on today. She finds it very hard to stay awake for more than a few minutes but she did stay awake for the 20-minute service and was kissing people on the way out, obviously very happy that she had done what she set out to do."
"She was pain-free during the ceremony. You could tell that she was smiling and very happy that now she's been christened."

Tears

The TV star was said to have been highly emotional when she said goodbye to her sons after the service yesterday. One pal said: "Every time she sees them she fears when she says 'goodbye' it will be for the final time. It is very difficult. There are always tears."
One of the first guests to arrive for the cermony was Jade's close pal, personal trainer Kevin Adams.
Shortly afterwards her ex Jeff turned up with Freddie and Bobby, tenderly holding their hands as they climbed the steps to the hospital entrance.
Next to arrive were four of Jade's bridesmaids, including Living TV producer Kate Jackson and her best friend Jennifer Smith.
Just before 11am, new husband Jack arrived with his mother and father. He had his head in his hands and was visibly distraught as the family's green Mini pulled up.
Minutes later, Jade's mum Jackiey arrived in a large black people carrier. When she left later, she wore dark glasses but they couldn't hide the tears rolling down her cheeks.
The ceremony, modified so weak Jade only had to answer yes or no, was conducted by hospital chaplain Chris Lee and Reverend Corinne Brixton, vicar of St John's Church in Buckhurst Hill, Essex.
A selection of prayers and blessings were read out, including the Lord's Prayer.
Describing how tears mixed with smiles during the poignant service, Jade's spokesman said: "It was lovely. It was very happy.
"No one else spoke other than the vicar and the chaplain. It was a very short service. Jade was laughing so it wasn't that bad."
Jade chose family members, trainer pal Kevin and two photographer friends as godparents.

Clapped

Before the service there had been fears that Bobby would create a scene because of his fear of water. Whenever he is splashed, he usually strips off all his clothes.
Anxious Jade gently asked him not to be upset when water was poured on his head.
As it turned out it was Freddie who reacted slightly when he was anointed.
The spokesman said: "The boys were a bit worried about the water put on their heads, but they put up with it and everybody clapped.
"Jade was obviously very happy with the whole thing. Jeff was there, on one side, and Jack was there on the other. Everybody knew how important it was for Jade and we were just happy to see her happy as she was so fragile.
"Jade had been asleep for most of the morning up until half an hour before.
"There were blessings and prayers and all three of them are now baptised.
"It was a very lovely service and one that anyone who witnessed it was very happy to be there for.
"Bobby was sitting on her lap throughout most of the service. Freddie was sitting next to Jack and Jack was next to Jade.
"It was just close family and friends, mum, her bridesmaids and obviously the people she wanted to be around her."
Despite her frail state, Jade was determined to greet and thank everyone who attended.
Her spokesman added: "She spoke to everybody and thanked everybody as she was coming in the wheelchair.
"She had a smile and a kiss for everyone. She got out of the wheelchair and sat down with the help of nurses and when she was coming back after the service everyone was kissing her and saying goodbye.
"You can make of that what you will. It was in my mind that as she was kissing people and saying goodbye to people that for some it would be the last time they saw her." Most of the guests left the hospital just after midday but Jade's sons, along with their father, stayed for a further hour before being taken off for a christening party.
The spokesman told us: "After the service, the boys went up to speak to Jade. I imagine they will be back to see her tomorrow. They will be as close to her as possible for as long as possible. Now they are going to be taken out in the West End for a party to celebrate."
The boys left for their party in a cab. Freddie's forlorn face peered out of the window, above a slogan which said, poignantly, "Who's helping you?"

Restrained

After leaving the Royal Marsden at around 2pm, Jack and several friends walked to the nearby Crown pub where they stayed for about 90 minutes before taking taxis to Knightsbridge for lunch at the Chicago Rib Shack.
At the restaurant they joined Jackiey, Kevin Adams, Jack's mum and Jade's bridesmaids where they stayed until 5pm.
After the meal a clearly distressed Jack had to be restrained by a female friend after getting into an argument with another man at a London Underground station. He was seen arguing with the passenger while they queued for tickets.
The pair exchanged words until the pal dragged Jack out of the man's way. Later, Jack and his mother arrived back at their home in Essex in time for his 7pm tagging curfew.
Last night Jade's friend and life coach Sue Stone told the News of the World that, despite her grave condition, the star was still praying for a miracle. he said: "Jade has found comfort reading the Bible and it was very important for her to be christened.
"It was something that would link her to the boys. It's something to help her and help them.
"I met Jade before she was diagnosed and I loved her right from the moment we met. When she found out she had cancer I tried to keep her thinking positive thoughts.
"She was looking to her faith to find inner peace and strength. She met with a spiritual healer and she was open to a lot of different ideas. She firmly believes it does not all stop when you pass away. She doesn't see it as the end. She believes her spirit will still be there guiding the boys. I can't believe that we are going to lose her. But she is prepared now. She wanted to get married and christen her sons.
"She feels good that she has provided for the boys' education and that she has had the christening almost to say goodbye to people."
Sue also said she hoped to visit Jade today with a healer who she believed had the power to help ease her pain.

Thanks

Meanwhile, Jade's spokesman revealed the reality star had asked him to pass on her thanks to the thousands of well-wishers who have contacted her.
He said said: "She asked me to thank the thousands who have written to her, not just from this country but from all over the world, in the last few weeks. It's meant an awful lot to her. There has been so much support from so many people all over the world, they have shown so much care for her." He said photos of the christening would now be published in a magazine next week.
Jade, he said, asked for them to be taken so the money they raised could go towards her sons' education and future.
He added that the coverage of the christening was likely to be the last time media were granted access to Jade before her death.
Aware that some have criticised Jade's decision to play out her tragic battle for life in public, he added: "She had her photo taken.
"I asked her just before it started, 'Are you sure?' She said, 'I want to have photos done'.
"She was very clear. The photos will be published and, of course, money from that will go to the boys."
He said of the christening: "This was the last thing she wanted. But Jade being but Jade, she changes her mind. We'll have to see."